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Best friends are everything
In this confusing world.
To bring you all the way down,
To this earth again.
To speak something beautiful,
To your weeping heart.
To be there and find you,
When you’ve lost yourself.
Even when you say something,
You never meant to say.
Or forgetting to go somewhere,
Or even meaning to do it that way.
And admitting you did it,
Is not the easiest thing in the world.
They still find reason to love you,
And hear your whisper in the dark.
Friends will be there,
When the time is right.
But best friends will be there,
Forever and a lifetime.
So let me be that friend,
Set me strait when I wonder on.
I want to be that person,
You’re my best friend in the world.
Help me to remember,
To still have fun.
In simple things,
That growing older has ruined.
Let’s go back to being kids,
And play together,
Forever again.
You don’t know what you hold,
When I am in your sight.
How you can change my emotions,
Even when I can’t.
One word from you,
Is like jewels I cannot speak of.
But when you do not look,
It breaks my heart into a million pieces.
You make me smile,
And you make me cry.
You break my heart,
Until I drift out of sight.
I cry and scream,
For you to stop this madness.
Of killing me,
Slowly and surly.
But hearing my silent cries of love,
Is like hearing the wind,
In the stillness of a moment.
Will I be yours,
And will you be mine.
I guess I should wait,
But this heart can only take so much.
Hating ever moment you’re away,
But not knowing what to do when you are.
Maybe this is foolish,
And there’s really nothing there.
But I can dream, cant I?
For sometimes dreams come true tonight.
Dance with me
Take my hand and lead me,
Into the hope of a brand new day.
Let me run threw the clouds of tomorrow,
And never turn back to yesterdays shame.
Dance with me until the sun comes up,
And say you love me again and again.
I long to hear you whisper,
And speak joy into my broken heart.
Let us float onto forever,
And never look back at the nights that have past.
You’re the hope,
That I want to hope for.
So dance with me,
Lets never look back.
The sun rise calls me,
To burn, and to cry.
But never let me answer,
Just hold me closer than ever that time.
Painting our memories on bloody water,
Help me to forget my mistakes tonight.
Keep me in your arms forever,
My hope, my joy, my one true love.
The day you left,
I thought the world stopped.
It didn’t seem right,
To go on and not look back.
I said I’d never see you,
That you were a memory now.
That even my tears wouldn’t work,
That you would never come back.
But then you came,
And your glance was ice.
It froze my heart,
Until I thought I wasn’t alive.
But is your love a true fact,
Would you do anything to see my face?
Because my love for you is true I know,
When I see you my heart skips and breaks.
I wish you would talk to me,
It always makes me smile.
The sky could be falling,
But I wouldn’t care at all.
For you have my smile,
When the world cries for death.
The sun could fall,
And burn down my life.
But I wouldn’t notices,
If only you were holding me.
I know what would happen.
If this came true today.
The world would stop spinning,
And life would be perfect.
Forever
I stare into the eyes of oblivion,
It haunts me with its glare.
The cabin on the hill has died,
It burned down forever into the night
It was filled with all the joys of this world,
What lay within was nothing at all.
I seem to be crying forever tonight,
To nothing at all but my own cries, in fright.
But then I find You,
You’re always there.
You’re the air that I breathe,
You’re the wind that I feel.
This joy I feel is so exuberating,
It brightens my world in ways I’ll never be able to say.
So hear my cries, worship and praise.
Be here with me till the world ends someday.
I love you so much, my Lord Jesus Christ,
So today will be fine, forever tonight.
How does it feel,
When he doesn’t talk to you.
When he notices others,
But never your gaze.
Trying to get his attention,
In everything you do.
But he never looks,
He’s as far away as the sun.
And maybe he does,
Like the girl he’s talking to.
And maybe you’ll watch them,
As they walk into the sunset.
And will you be able to hold the tears,
That drifts down,
In a flood at you feet.
He’ll never be mine,
That’s what you’ll have to tell you’re self.
As you think about your life,
And remember how he was supposed to be with you.
How could it turn out this way?
What did you do wrong?
When did it come to,
You not entering his mind?
Maybe it was ignoring him,
Not being able to look him in the eye.
Being to nerves,
To even be next to him.
Whatever it was,
He’ll never be with you.
Because maybe he likes her,
Maybe he doesn’t.
The one thing I know,
Never talking to him will get you nowhere.
He’ll like the girl,
That gives him her heart.
And not the girl,
That sits in the corner with tear filled eyes.
Sing a lullaby,
To the crying young.
Even when you cry,
Make it fly and soar.
Don’t make others hurt,
Live on with a smile.
You’re never again this broken song,
That breaks the hearts of the dead.
He’ll never love you,
I know this for sure.
Because I’m this person,
I’m the broken singer,
Of the tear filled lullaby.
I am only happy when I see your face,
The other moments of my life are just another tear filled day.
How can I be alive,
When your face is no longer there.
It only brightens my dreams,
And places were I think.
And when you’re gone,
I'm so alone.
But I've never even said a word.
You'll know my love when I become brave,
But for now it’s just another tear filled day.
If I died tomorrow
Would you cry at my grave.
I’m not saying I’ll comment suicide
I’m just wondering if you’ve noticed me.
If I cry out your name
Will you be there in a flash
Or will you forever be listing,
To another voice.
When I see your face
I’m happy for that moment
Does it do the same to you.
I cant say why I love you.
I cant say it today
But someday I’ll forget this life
Of never-ending lies of us.
Never scream if there’s nothing wrong
Cause I’ll always run when you cry.
No matter what they say of you.
I’ll never stop loving this breath.
Of the glimpse I get of you.
Of the love I feel for you.
Get into this life and tear.
I’m chained up
And I cant get out.
If you see me fall,
Only pick me up
If you mean it.
When you mean it.
Courage is frightening,
When standing by your kind words.
Wanting, ever wanting,
To tell you everything I feel inside.
Looking into your eyes I wander,
Wander into the depths of my heart.
Finding words to keep you talking,
And have you know the way I feel.
The oceans could come,
And drown me so suddenly.
But I would never know,
As long as your there.
My words come out in riddles,
And ways I never wanted them to.
Take the key to open there meanings,
And find out what I truly want.
My ears have been broken into pieces,
They’ve turned into dust of unknown shame.
But your words touch them and are so gentle,
And help them to heal into beautiful jewels.
Will you be around,
To comfort me when I’m crying?
I love you so much,
If only you knew.
I’m screaming and crying,
For my love for you.
But only inside,
Only in my quiet thoughts of brokenness.
Around you I’m nothing,
Just everyday me.
Pretending for emptiness,
For I’m dieing in love with you.
I watch you in silence,
Pretending I don’t care.
But I really love you,
And want to know you more.
Bloody tears fall down for you,
When I cant speak,
When I only seem to stand alone.
Cry metal tears,
For your lost life.
Nobody understands you,
And life has caved in.
But look in the dark,
There’s a light at the end.
If only you’d see it,
You might find hope in this.
Being different is hard I know,
But hold on to the wind.
I’ll run from time,
Just to help you get threw this.
I know you might be scared,
Of being trapped in nothingness.
But just know that I’m there,
And I’d do anything to hold your hand.
My heart is broken
I try to glue it back
It won’t be fixed
It’s laying there dead
But when you smile
And talk to me
Its something beautiful
My hearts whole
Again.
No longer a ghost
You were a ghost,
Never in my sight.
All of a sudden you appeared,
You blew me away.
I can’t explain it,
It was extraordinary.
Your smile now is there,
It haunts my thoughts everyday.
Never again will I think of another one,
You’re the only one there now.
You’re the one that sleeps in my mind,
My dreams are of you.
I wanted to get you out
But now all I want to do is think.
Think of you,
Every time I breathe,
I think.
My thoughts are of you,
I love you.
Never wake up
My Cinderella story,
Will it come true today?
Will I dance at the ball,
And be beautiful beyond belief?
Will my prince charming come,
And sweep me off my feet?
Will I be happy,
If my dreams do come true someday?
Fantasy is everywhere,
It captivates our thoughts.
When I smile and fly,
I’m really in a distant land.
And when I fight the fire,
I’m not really there.
I try to forget,
My life back home somehow.
You scream and you hate,
Is life really so hard.
Do you run to your dream land?
And hope that they don’t find you there?
Do you wish you were a fairy?
So you could zap away your life?
Riding your stallion,
Threw dangers first fight.
It’s going to come true,
You just know it someday!
But tonight you just dream,
And hope you don’t wake.
Tossing and turning,
Bad dreams go away.
Cause the night is my castle,
It’s my escape from everything.
Maybe I should sleep,
And really never wake up.
After all my dreams hold,
The key to my heart.
The boy of my dreams,
Is waiting right there.
Ready to hold me,
To be forever mine.
I can be perfect,
Just so I close my eyes.
So why go back,
To my second choice life?
I’ll stay in my dreams,
And never look back.
I’m a princess today,
And a knight some other time.
I’ll start to fly,
I’ll talk to the birds.
And when I start to soar,
I’ll look down to the ground.
I’ll see that my life,
Isn’t so bad after all.
I’ll try living again,
Maybe it won’t be so bad.
My second choice life,
Might become my first choice after all.
Maybe tomorrow,
Since it is another day.
A guy will love me,
And I’ll live happily ever after the end.
But first I need to learn to love,
And when I finally let go.
I’ll learn that this life is truly the best,
And I’ll learn how to soar.
Pushing away
Can’t see in front of me,
Everything’s gone.
What I’ve called for,
It’s never going to be.
Lost in my thoughts,
Of everything that’s not right.
Knowing that screaming,
Will never help this blankness I feel inside.
Forgetting to wear my smile,
Forgetting to be my stupid self.
People seeing the true person I am,
That I’m evil,
And push everyone away.
I wish I could say my feelings,
So people would know how I feel.
So I wouldn’t look like this thing I’ve become,
I wouldn’t be anything at all.
If I could do it,
I’d show you my heart.
It cries, it burns,
It breaks every moment of my life.
Cause I can’t show my true self,
I’ll always be this broken doll.
Nothing else,
I’ll never change.
Let me cry,
Let me bleed tell my eyes break.
I’m nothing but plastic,
I can’t feel this pain that draws itself.
Walking in deserts,
With nobody in site.
Pushing everyone away,
How can I be like this?
Please let me cry,
For I’m breaking into something worse.
How can I be so evil?
How can I push people around?
I don’t deserver to be here,
I’m dieing, I’m drowning in this state.
Help me cry for help,
Cause I’m like this forever now.
I guess I’ll always be lonely,
Because I’m afraid to show myself.
People that have hope I push them away,
To go to another,
To seek a friendly face.
Never to be happy,
Because I’m always pushing away.
I can’t breath I’m dieing,
I’m breaking and nobody sees,
Having nothing to say ever,
But screaming words that never end.
How can I be this evil?
How can I push you away?
My face is shattering,
From all the tears.
Putting on my broken smile,
So you don’t see the broken doll within.
Real
Scream another broken heart
Make me cry and make me run
I want to be real, and live in your arms
So give me a line, I’ll sing it and fade
You never said it would be easy,
I never believed you until I broke.
Give me a line, I’ll live it
I just want to be real
I just want to be real.
Live in this land of black dieing flowers
And when I die, I won’t feel a thing
I bleed these spoken words of death,
To never fade to never cry
But I cry still, nobody stops me.
I cry I scream I bleed for you.
Run into the ocean of life, and drown,
Can I live for you?
Live for you everyday.
When I say these words into your ears
Give them away, let them be heard.
Screams in the night.
Rain will fall,
And my fairytale land will decease
I love to live,
But sometimes it’s just so hard to breath.
Kiss my hand and hold it tonight.
I might not wake up,
So tell me everything’s all right.
The wind will blow us apart someday,
But that’s never a reason to cry.
I want to tell you something,
I want to scream.
But some reason my voice evaporated,
So the moon will talk for me.
The bottom of the ocean is getting so close.
When I run out of air,
What will happen to us?
I know I’m worrying,
And I know I’m a little out of touch.
Cause there was never a we,
These fantasies are getting to close.
I run and I dream,
But life will still catch up.
I’ll hide under the bed,
But real life will soon find me and laugh.
I know I’m scared,
When my hand shakes like this.
But today I’m going to be happy,
And live my life as it is.
Slowing down this already slow mind,
To find the key to hold it like that.
Not knowing when to quit the race,
Not knowing when to speed up.
Confusion is something familiar,
We like it cause its there.
Not knowing were losing ourselves within,
That were already gone.
We can’t scream,
Our voices are gone,
We panic and go to the end.
Running off the bridge of hope,
To only find a pit in the dark.
Day break comes,
And brings new resolution.
Come and taste it,
Its nothing but joy.
Finding everything in nothing but life,
Living like it’s the day we need.
I can’t stand any longer,
Without you by my side.
Fasten your hand in my weak one,
And whisper to my weeping heart.
Fighting threw this hole we’ve dug,
To find the top and breath.
Light is everything,
Without it there’s emptiness.
Let’s win this once and for all,
Tonight.
Having dreams of unfamiliar eyes,
Haunting us in our deepest thoughts.
Coming to the wisdom,
That everything has a lighter side.
Breathing new air,
In the opening of day.
The battle is over,
Joy has won the fight again.
The boy next door
Knocked on your heart
Did you let him in
Or did he shut you out?
Scream it loud,
And scream it out.
Maybe he’ll hear you,
Maybe he won’t
Won’t…..
Boys next door
That date four girls
Don’t make good dates
They just make your heart break
Maybe when you find this out
You just might find true love.
What’s the hurry though?
Why not take a little break
Now….
The boy of your dreams
Was checking you out
He said he might like you
Maybe even love
Your heart isn’t beating
It’s frozen in time
But now he’s checking out your best friend
And he’s asking her out
Now….
Guy’s can be stupid
And guys can be jerks
But guess what
It’s not the end of the world.
You have time to think
You have time to wait
But what you don’t have at all
Is a reason to date
The boy next door
That dates four girls
He isn’t a good date
He just makes your heart break
And maybe when you find this out
You just might find true love
But what’s the hurry
Why not take a little break
Now….
The cry of my soul.
Speak softly,
Into the ears of the hurt.
Yell and they’ll run,
Run to the dragon of never ending tears.
I swim into the white ocean,
It swallows me whole.
But nobody sees it,
There to busy laughing at there self.
Why can’t I tell him?
That it hurts me worse,
When he doesn’t speak softly,
When he stares at me that way.
Beat it with a knife,
Into my heart,
Into my soul.
If I’m a vampire,
I’ll never feel it at all.
But tears are still poison,
They dampen my eyes.
But I’ll never show this face,
I’ll but on my lie.
And show you I’m happy,
That I can be the one you want.
Blackened roses,
Are all you offer me I know.
The gift of death,
I’ll take it and run.
Everyday I think,
Of if you could ever like me this way.
And when the thought of suicide,
Lingers so softly in my mind.
I won’t think of you,
I won’t give you that joy.
I’ll think of my father,
How he died for my soul.
And I want you to know,
And if I scream I’ll back away.
But your ears have been broken,
They’ve been broke with your words.
See into the unknown,
Speak into the clear.
The wall of my life,
Is it the shelter of yours?
Please don’t confuse me,
More than I already am.
Your blackened roses,
Won’t be enough in the end.
I only need my true prince,
The one that looks from above.
There is an earthly prince though,
Will this one day be you?
I’ll wait for you,
But just know I’m not immortal.
I need to find the other side,
Of this never ending white ocean.
Unicycles
I went to the circus
I saw a clown
He was riding around
On something that cote my eye.
He threw a pie,
And the people all laughed
But did I notice? NO!
I was to busy checking out his ride!
Oh…..
Unicycles, Unicycles
There so cool, so go out and buy one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
You want one, I want one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
People stare, but we don’t care.
Yeah…….
Unicycles!
I’m on my bicycle
I’m riding around
Going up hill’s getting old
And so is down, down, down
I am so tired
Of the same old thing,
Want to be original
Want to be free!!!
Oh…..
Unicycles, Unicycles
There so cool, so go out and buy one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
You want one, I want one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
People stare, but we don’t care.
Yeah…….
Unicycles!
I got a unicycle last week
I fell down a lot a lot,
Now I’m riding around the town
And I feel so free like me
On my one wheel, it’s so fun
Won’t you look at me?
Cars and bicycles, there all fine.
If you want to be the same.
You think you look so cool
In your car, its all you ever think of
But guess what, your not that cool
cause you have four and I have one wheel,
And one is better than four,
Don’t you know?
Oh…..
Unicycles, Unicycles
There so cool, so go out and buy one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
You want one, I want one.
Unicycles, unicycles,
People stare, but we don’t care.
Yeah…….
Clowns are my heroes.
Unseen Dreams
Sleepless nights of unseen dreams,
I live in light I die in green.
Roses smelling so sweet today,
Rose’s dieing, withering wreaths.
I sing like a bird of joyous day,
I cry and cry until I bleed.
Smiles comforting on winter stone,
Cold hard lies of withering souls.
I love and love and give my joy,
I frown until my heart breaks away.
Kindness, I give and take as gifts,
Sorrow is like drinking thorny fits.
Children laugh, and play all day,
They’ve all deceased, they’ve all gone away.
Friends of laughter, smiles so sweet,
They laugh at me, they give me grief.
Confusion is my life you see,
When I live in light, I die in green
Confusion
Confusion is always in my mind,
Fears and joys, girls and boys.
Someone tell me how to get through my life,
I’ve made some bad decisions and I don’t want to die.
I like someone this day, the next there gone.
Something I like, someone says its wrong.
Please just tell me to do the right thing!
I’ll try really hard; if I fail give me a break.
I get made fun of, I get left out,
But I’ll get through this pain, in the end I’ll win the fight.
Your there
How can I explain something?
That’s not visible to the human eye.
And that’s every where at once.
Live in me,
I feel your breath.
Give me life,
I live for you.
You are my wings
To soar to fly.
Without you I’m dead,
I’m never alive.
You’re a question you’re an answer,
You’re everything at once.
I can’t explain you,
But that doesn’t mean your not there.
Haunt me with your presences,
Be there when death awakens.
I love you,
I live for you.
You are my Savior,
You are my life.
You are the water,
That never runs dry.
How can I thank you?
Giving my thoughts,
To the highest of all.
To mold and to sculpt,
Into something beautifully made.
I can’t seem to see,
That my attempts are nothing.
That without You I can’t move,
I’m just a broken wing butterfly.
Trying to make You happy,
When You’re happy just when I try.
Giving You my twisted emotions,
So they’ll have meaning,
Once and for all.
Your everything I’ve ever wanted,
You give your grace,
To the unknown girl in the corner.
How can I thank You?
How can I praise You?
When I’m just me,
I’m this tiny.
You give me breath,
When I’ve been wrenched from life.
Your worthy of everything,
I can only give you my all.
It’s not even close to enough,
But You love it just the same.
You’re everything that’s perfect Lord,
Yet You still loved me,
Enough to die for this broken doll I am.
How can I ever thank You?
And praise You enough?
For everything You’ve given,
For everything You’ve promised me.
But you said You’d still love me,
Even with this little I give.
You’re my perfect savior,
You’re everything I need.
My heart was broken,
You held my hand.
It gave life to the shattered pieces,
And now I’m whole,
And never broken again.
